just being me

Things to look forward to...

Okay, just for clarification, the previous post was not meant to sound depressing or express any signs of self pity. I just came home from trying to get things figured out at school and I was just SO pissed off at everything. It was a major vent, the curse words are a good example of that. : ) I only curse when I am so pissed or annoyed at something, not a fan of cursing in public or out loud for that matter. I just put in words what I had been feeling and that was STUCK. BUT THANKS to everyone who emailed and commented, its sweet to know that I have support. Thank you SO SO much.

On the bright side of things, which is my favorite side, there is lots for me to look forward to this month and just in general. I love love LOVE hving things to look forward to, always. I could possibly have a new job not just a new one but a freeaking fantastical one, I am riding a plane for the first time and traveling alone for the first time, going to Chicagoland in two weeks and working to help debut a line of products from the fabulous October Afternoon. Also, the possible new job may create lots of opportunity and time for the photo biz. Its like a blessing, an opening of storm clouds for the light to shine through! That is all so cool.

And on a side note, I think I have more than one angel watching over me to help make my life a little bit easier. I think she knows who she is and I cant express my gratitude enough. Thanks, Love. : )

So to help brighten things up, I'll share some pics from my most recent photoshoot of a little Filipino Senior:

So, gotta get ready for work and eat some grub before I go in. Ciao for now. : )

"And I feel stuck watching history repeating..."

Stuck. Feel so very stuck right now and its so frustrating. Fell upon this song tonight that matches everything I am feeling right now. Perfectly.

-Stuck at a crappy job because of the money/hours is good. Such a stressful and shitty atmosphere. I want to cry going into that place everyday. And it is SO far from home.

-Stuck with school because I cant pay for it and to get fin. aid I need to speak to "her" to get her info only for them to reject my application because my expected family contribution is too high. Bull shit. Even if she made enough money to give to me for college, she'd piss on it then light it on fire before she handed it over for my well being. Not to mention the fact that the College Staff makes the stuck feeling even worse with their goose chases and lack of knowledge or direction. history repeating in multiple ways.

-Stuck with starting my photography business because I need to build a portfolio and have not the subjects or the time to do it. Only have two days from the week that I can do shoots (due to the hell hole workplace) and cant pay for the inital fees to get everything going because I hate working at the place I work at and have SO many damn bills to pay.

And out of all of this the only thing that makes my life happy is Nicholas who I hardly get to see and when I do he is tired and poopy from his work.

I know this is just SO much whining, an exceptional amount for just one post but I cant help it. I am sick of everything right now. Have no REAL friends, nor a REAL family and am having so many difficulties starting a REAL life. What is a girl to do. I just want to go to school Full time to teach and build my photo business in the process. But I have no plan. No way of executing this. I try so hard but nothing is working.

Its been a rough year so far. But mostly just this week. These are the things that keep me going:

After a crying session from work Saturday night (when I cry its not just for one reason so no, I was not crying because of work. A small stupid situation just brought up SO much stuff and the stress and frustration just pours out after that) Nicholas felt so bad that I didnt even want to talk about it and there was nothing he could do to help. He is SUCH an angel, and not to be corny or anything but the reason I am here. I try not to forget that I am here for him, he is my blessing for all of the fucked up shit I have been through and probably have yet to go through and I cant be more grateful. He woke me up Sunday morning and after 2 hours I finally got up because of these. Sweet yellow daisies, just because it was Sunday he said. He was coming home from work and just thought he'd stop and get me some flowers to make me smile. I can not WAIT to marry this man. Thats another thing I am feeling stuck about, Im stuck being his girlfriend. Its going on 7 years this September. But it has been a fabulous 7 years so I cant complain. We have been living together for over 3 years and in our own place for almost 1 and it has been perfectly easy. We complement each other so well and that just makes for an easy life together to look forward to. I like having something to look forward to. : )

The title was inspired by this song by Switchfoot: (ignore the video, or dont. It is sort of cute but I only wanted the song on here) I just love the song and the lyrics, so what Im feeling right now.

Ciao for now. Need to cuddle with my man and get some sleep for tomorrow! (get to play and shoot some maternities for a friend! excited, can you tell?)

Just a quickie...

Ive been proofing like crazy. not much time for scrappy stuff except for the June SOMO kit because everyone's gotta make time for that. The biz stuff has been put on a hold for a little bit - Ive found that I can accept payment legally without having a legal business entity. Ill be paying some poopy taxes at the end of the year but whatev. I still need to do a lot of detail business planning and portfolio building.

Speaking of, I got the PLEASURE of doing this on Saturday:

    

Is she not the most gorgeous little girl you have ever seen? I love that I can say this unbiased since I dont have a little girl of my own. Seriously, she is going to be an amazingly beautiful woman. Shes 3. I know! She is so outgoing and sweet. I ran into her and her mom and just came out an asked her if I could do a shoot at no cost for my portfolio. Her mom was delighted and we did it two days later. They were visiting here from GA and was leaving that night. HOW LUCKY!? It was like perfection - you know being at the right place at the right time. The only thing is she did not want her photo taken. She thought she did before the shoot and once it was getting too much I was going to leave and she didnt want me to so she let me take a few at the very end, those are the magenta dress ones. All of the others were just pure luck. So out of about 420 photos I got a whole 7. But who cares, I have 7 good ones and there will be more shoots of her in the future. Once she is more comfortable with me and the camera and she has a nap before the shoot I am sure I will be getting some killer ones next time. I am determined to make her a model, she has all of the potential and she told her mom she would like to do that so Id at least like to give it a try. I am just so glad I met these two wonderful women, I made some great new friends. It was such fun and the session ended with lots of hugs. : )

Okay, must go to bed. Gotta work on a slideshow tomorrow for Sara (the girl below) and then its off to stupid REAL work. lol

ciao for now.

   

"Do you ever have that feeling in your body..."

"...like you just wanna break out some hardcore dancemoves? You know when you hear that song that gives you that energy, like you just feel it in you and you need to release it! *all said while hardcore sit-dancing on the couch next to nicholas*

Nick: "Not like that."

So while on my way home after a poopy night at work, in the pouring rain and s-l-o-w m-o-t-i-o-n traffic, this song comes on the radio. Its a song I havent heard in some time and I REALLY really love it. You know, those kind of songs that you make a mental note to download so you can add it to your ipod? Well that was it. I cranked it up and just enjoyed my little tiny piece of heaven after a crappy night. It was nice. : )

Fast forward to about 12:15am. I am proofing photos from the photoshoot mentioned below and that mental note pops up! which is even more of a plus considering I always losing those mental notes and dont find them until its the wrong place and the wrong time therefore resulting in me making yet another mental note which really is the same one from before but just a refresh. I excitedly type in the band name because I couldnt remember the song title, see what I mean, just so I can hear it again while I download it and luckily find the music video. *Insert above conversation here. Also, imagine my arms being thrust into the air excitedly and sit-dancing on the couch, it adds to the hilarity. Oh and add a scared and confused look to Nick's face as he watches me and answers my question, thats got to be the best part. : ) *

I loved the video so much and thought that maybe I should blog about it to always have at my disposal and share with friends as well, but it wasnt the kind that you can embed to your blog. So as I am searching for an embeddable video so that we can hear the song over and again I stumble upon this insanity:

Nicholas and I were laughing so hard at this. It only got better when we caught these things:

• The guitarist's pursed lips
• The drummer's seriousness
• The vocalist is actually doing a pretty good job
• The Repetitive thrustings from Dr. Pepper
• The fact that they actually arent a bad looking group of guys.
• The paper drumsticks Nick caught this one and I almost peed I was laughing so hard.

Not to mention that I could totally see myself doing this. In fact it is something I have done, only with a mirror in place of the webcam. what....havent we all? Although I didnt actually have a guitar, nor did I create drumsticks out of paper or any other material. Oh and this comment left by someone about the video saying, "Wow this is seriously the gayest thing I have ever seen. I thought only girls got together and did this sort of stuff," is just the icing on top of it all. Seriously seriously made my night. Where's the cherry you say? as if it could get any better... Well this is just one video out of a collection of tribute "jam sessions" of AudioSlave songs by this group. These are the things that amuse me. I love my humor. : )

So that was the song. the one that gave me that feeling. And the hardcore sit-dancing...it was totally off beat. Love that the best. : ) Those are the best kinda feelings. Music makes up most of my soul, can you tell?

Moving on....I have been proofing ALL night. I just cant stop it. Sara is so brilliantly beautiful and fun, its addicting. I SO cant wait to do this for a living. You cant even imagine the giddy-ness I get while proofing photos. Its sort of sad, but mostly good news. I shouldnt post any more here until she gets to see them but here's my second favorite photo of the year that I just sent for printing tonight:

That hunk of gorgeous is what I get to wake up next to every morning! Lucky lucky me! Im not bragging, but if I was could you blame me!?! lol Cant wait to marry this man.....but for now I cant wait to scrap this photo. : )

Hopefully that's what I'll be doing tomorrow afternoon before work. Im excite to do the Story of my Own challenge for this month, we're all going to scrap a conversation! hence the inspiration for tonights title. I used to write down our funny conversations, which was often, but I always misplaced them. We exchange the silliest thoughts, life is never boring between us two. I am always laughing or giggling...or both. : ) I recorded a convo we had on here before. Thats the one Im going to scrap. It was a little one but was an important one.

Need to make a trip to the LSS tomorrow too. Lisa is having a crazy 50% off sale and I am afraid that all that amazing Making Memories funky vintage will be picked through by the time I get to it! I must have my Funky Vintage. Mucho importanto.

For now, its time for bed. Man I have a lot to say. If only you could see/hear/think the thoughts that go on inside my head! I cant even decipher it sometimes....its just so much. Ciao for now. : )

"Fine, we'll have a lovely garden party..."

...and you're not invited"

Okay, I have been wanting to blog about this since we first saw this movie but I just havent been able to find the time. Then, instead of bloggin about it we saw it AGAIN! Im talking about Pirates of the Caribbean: At world's end. Nicholas and I caught the last showing on Friday night and it was surprisingly not full (we have a thing about waiting a while after it comes out to avoid rude interruptions throughout the film like we've experienced before) I just COULD NOT wait to see this movie. LOVE POTC! I loved it SO much I really wanted to see it again and Nicholas totally agreed with me so we saw the second to last showing on Sunday night. Oddly, it was busier on sunday than it was on Friday. ANYWAY, I laughed SO much and although there are a few plot holes and I dont understand why they ended it the way they did both of us would go watch it another time. as I am typing this nick is telling me that he really wants to go again. Johnny Depp is maddeningly talented and does a superb job in this film! LOVE IT! Make a date night with your sig. other or your best friend and go see it! Of course you have to watch the first two before you see the third one but it is so worth the $9.

I was asked to do another shoot this week for a sweet girl, Sara, that I work with. Her mom saw the referral card that I gave to Hayley (my first shoot, read below) and Sara said that she got so excited because its exactly what they wanted but didnt even know it! Her mom is so cute, she was so anxious that she came in to my work to eat dinner so that she could ask me in person to do a Senior shoot of her daughter, even though Sara had already asked me and I agreed. It was really nice to meet her and it seemed more real to me that I will be doing this for money sooner than later like I had expected. I hadnt any hope for business to come from Hayley, especially this soon. I didnt charge her of course. I dont think Ill be comfortable charging anyone for me to take their photo until I am FULLY comfortable with what I am doing and can consistently produce above quality shots. But it seems that I need to open for business real soon so I can start accepting payment. : )

Here are a few peeks:

and this outtake helps me show just how much fun we had being silly and thinking out of the box:

These girls just make it too easy though. I have loads of fun, they are absolutely GORGEOUS inside and out, and such naturals in front of the camera. I need tougher subjects! 

I got my Story of my own kit the day before yesterday! OMFreakingGosh! Love Elsie everywhere!  Its so funny because its the same day I Rushed to the Ruban Rouge to get my Elsie fix after waiting so long. I LOVE LOVE LOVE this kit! The stamps Rock as always! The only thing that sucks is that being independent, I dont get to travel at all, so I dont have much to scrap about regarding travel. I am going to Chicago next month which I am COMPLETELY and UTTERLY excited about! I am going to be going for October Afternoon, a rocking stamp company that will be debuting their first line at CHA. I had planned on going anyway but now Ill be representing a fab company, owned by fab people and Ill have more money to spend in the city! I just can NOT let myself get all worked up in the moment of it and forget to take photos. I always do that. lol. But anyway, go check out this kit! ROCKS MY MONTH OFF!

Alright, my pinky finger is cramping and I need to get some sleepy-time so Ill check ya later!

The title is a quote from Jack Sparrow in the POTC:AWE movie. : ) seriously, go watch it!

"I turn my camera on..."

So here I am again! blogging twice in one week! How exciting?!?

I did come out with some good photos from the wedding, and I am content. It was such an extremely STRESSFUL day, due to me not being prepared. My battery died and I was forced to go on an unwanted adventure to fix the problem. Long story, a detour and many tears later I make my way back to the hotel after 2 hours of craziness. From there on it was breezy and fine. : ) I worked fast and I think with working in Manual all day I did a pretty good job! Although, I definitely dont see any more weddings in the future. (other than the one Ive already agreed to do in October, this was before I did this one so Im committed to it.) I'll just shut up and show a little sneaky...

I didnt go to the reception because I was just SO exhausted and I didnt have an off camera flash for the lighting. I cant stand to use the on camera flash, I absolutely hate photos with a brightened subject and a completely black background. SO I came home, ate dinner and sacked out. : ) It was an energy sucking day but Im glad I had the experience because I have come to learn that I am NOT a wedding photographer.

So about today's title, Im loving this song right now by Spoon. I saw some weird Youtube video of a yellow sponge dancing to it and stumbled upon the song again tonight trying to remember where I had heard it before. LOVE LOVE the rich colors in the video too! Anyway, checkit out...I could listen to it all day long, so makes me wanna get up and bust a move:

Okay, Im off to get some rest. Have LOTS of things I need to do tomorrow, including a much needed trip to the LSS!

Ciao for now. : )

"i'll make this way worse than you know"

SO blog neglector of the year? I would definitely be nominated, dont you think?

Life has been busy but at the same time I feel like Im getting NOTHING done. I think overwhelmed would be the word.

I have some fun and super exciting news but I dont know all of the deets yet and even if I did I dont think Id be able to share with you. : ) why even bother saying anything right? well just thought something positive in my life should have some light since I am about to go in super depressing mode right now...

Current mood: TERRIFIED.

So about mid last year I was asked by a young woman at my work to take photos at her wedding. She had seen some photos of my family from an album I did and apparently loved it. I agreed thinking that I would just be an extra photographer and she just wanted some portraits done. The words "take photos" gave me this thought process and it seemed fine as long as she didnt use the word "photographer" which would imply me being the only one. Well its been creeping up and we were talking about it again when she mentioned that I would be the only one taking photos other than her uncle who would be shooting some pictures of the Groom's men getting ready. *insert freak out here* WHAT?! I have never shot an event, I am hardly even ready to shoot portraits let alone events, not to mention the MOST important event in two people's lives. So I didnt show her too much of my fear but I did let her know that me being the only photographer made me a little nervous. I told her that Ive only done portraits and some sports in high school and she came back with "You will be fine." Now I am thinking that they are low on money since they are paying for their own wedding and she trusts what I will come up with, but I have this fear that once she sees what I have left after deleting all of the blurry photos she'll regret her decision.

I am definitely NOT charging her but still, its something I have been stressing out over for the past two weeks. I am just so not ready for an important event like this. I dont have the correct lenses, the backup batteries, the memory, the tripod or flash for the reception, the experience and the "every photo comes out perfect or at least in focus" trick. I researched SO much in the past two weeks and found that wedding photographers usually use these lenses:

• 28-75 f/2.8
• 24-70 f/2.8
• 70-200 f/2.8

and any of those make sense because it'll help in keeping the lense change down to a minimum. I have looked into renting them but the only places I wuold be able to do that would be online because there arent any places locally that offer that service. But I cant do the online jig because it is this sunday! I wouldnt mind owning the last one but im not in the budget range to blow $1000 on a lens that I dont really NEED especially after just throwing $400 on a BRAND NEW 85mm this monday. yes, i am jumping for joy. thats definitely more exciting news amidst all of this worry. : )

So yeah, terribly stressed out right now and I probably will be until all of this, including the processing and printing is all over with. If anyone has any tips or pointers that you think may help out I would SO MUCH appreciate it! I am doing the getting ready, a few bridals, the ceremony which will fly by in only 20 minutes, formals, transportation to and from, and she wants me to do the reception too which will be INDOORS AT NIGHT. freaking me out the most, i never do nightime indoors and the ones I have, they didnt come out so well. They are getting ready at a hotel in a suite, the hampton I think, will be traveling in a hummer limo, the ceremony starts at 6:30pm at the Florida Botanical Gardens, and the reception is at an irish sort of restaurant. Im so scared. Im trying to be confident but it is so hard. Why did she freakin' ask me to do her wedding? Engagements...got it. Bridals even, but THE wedding?

ANYWAY, on the other hand I was aked to shoot some photos for a sweet girl that moved here from Tennessee and didnt get a chance to have photos taken for her graduation announcements. So we went to Downtown Tarpon Springs and had some fun. I couldnt believe that they came out so awesome. As I was playing with the colors I was getting SO excited. She loves them, I love them, her mom, her grandmother, and pretty much everyone so far! Although I would always love some honest cc it didnt hurt to hear all of the good stuff!

Here is one of my favorites:

    

Isnt she just gorgeous? She was just so easy to work with. She is my first non family subject and it was so fun! Love ya Hayley! There is a really neat alley one too but it isnt so sharp. Maybe Ill share more of them later when I gain some more confidence. : )

Need to get some sleep now, my lens should be coming tomorrow and I wanna be awake for it! Just hoping it doesnt come after I leave for work. Wow, this ended up being way longer than I expected. Im good at that.

btw, the title is a lyric from one of my new favorite bands, The Format. love them : )

Last Chance Blueprint

That title is just how im feeling right now. = |  Its the title of a song by a band called Rise Against, Nick's favorite musical artist EVER and one of mine too. Its about Living life to the fullest, fulfilling your hopes and dreams despite what people say or tell you. I have to see my mother (or as I know her, the spawn of satan) tomorrow, not by choice, and this is what comes up in my head - remembering that I am worth something and I can make myself happy despite all of the hurdles Ive had in my way. I need to do this for myself, otherwise those memories and thoughts will overwhelm me again and I get so off balance, forgetting the most important things.

Had a pretty bad day today. I have been wanting to scrap but havent the photos to just pull out and get going, the solution to this is part of my "change" in scrapbooking. I have SO much that I want to get down for good and that I want to tell about myself but I never can just jump in and start creating. Its such a process. Im going to condense my perfectionistic habits and start working ahead of myself. You see, I never print photos out before hand, I am always picking the colors/paper I want to work with, then the sketch, design or technique and finally the photos. It seems so backwards to me. Probably because it is. : ) Well today, I just did it! I edited about ten photos, hey its at least a start, and im sending them to be printed. I just chose the ones that I liked the best and would like to see as a bigger photo on a layout, sized them to either 5x7 or 6x9 and then the rest were just 4x6s! Im so proud of myself. Im not going to just use Walgreens because it is fast, Im actually going through 2peaspictures again and Im going to wait for them. In the meantime, I will edit more photos, update my blog or work on this mini-album Im trying to finish. : ) Im excited about this change, I think it will help me to scrap more and it may even affect my attitude. in a good way of course.

Here are some of my recent layouts:

Not doing that whole "dont post your layouts online just in case a publication wants them to be never before seen." BLECH, how silly is that?! Im usually wanting to get pages published so I can justify my spending in scrapbooking but its becoming so much work and stress. I WANNA HAVE FUN! And now I save more money on scrap stuff since I have an actual discount and it makes such a difference. Ill still be sending them my stuff to look at and if they find that they want something then COOL, because it is still pretty exciting to share with friends and family. Everyone at my work LOVES the fact that I am in a magazine, they think its super neat, and I like that cool feeling of someone being interested in me. Plus  my little men, Aaron and Taylor LOVE LOVE LOVE to see themselves in the magazine. They get all excited when I tell them they got another page picked up and Im not even making that big of a deal of it to them. Now THAT is totally a reason all by itself to still submit to magazines. : )

That last page, the tought stuff one, was done in a decent amount of time (that NEVER happens, Im such a SLOW scrapper.) and with my new scrappin attitude. : )

so ciao for now, I got a one year birthday party to go to tomorrow afternoon. My sweet little Emma just turned one, its that little baby in the album to the right.

The rest is still unwritten...

I know I know. But why blog when I could be spending that precious time creating something fun!? lol

So this is just a little bloggy before I go to sleepy. I feel bad for neglecting my poor blog for such a long time so I just felt the NEED to come here and enter something. : ) My next entry was going to be about not winning HOF/HM and my thoughts on that but I am just too tired and the fact that I was going to do that just kept on making me NOT want to blog. : ) but that little ditty, the not winning part, made a little impact on my scrapping practices and outlook so it must be blogged at one point or another. Its just something that needs to be recorded.

ANYWAY, I had a good weekend. I hung out with two of the coolest ladies in the "scrapbooking industry" and I had such a blast. Emily and Margie were such fun! For the short and to the point version of the weekend: We went to international to shop while waiting for Emily's plane to land, were wooed by "Rich" and the "scrumptious delicacies" for dinner at Roy's on Thursday, had tea at the Main street Tea house in Safety Harbor for lunch on Friday, Cropped together and talked of strap ons and Penis drills Friday night, Took classes and signed walls Saturday afternoon and topped it all off by hanging out "in the neighborhood" for dinner Saturday night. talk about a run on sentence. lol. Now Im going to keep my blabbering to myself and let the photos talk for themselves there are more in the album to the right:

Okay, so that kick Ace strap above, TOTALLY made my year. Not even kidding. Emily made them by hand with ribbon from Thailand and is selling them for such a steal! I love it so so so so so much. I could not get over it, I was so giddy. I got the best one though, that color just makes my heart all warm and fuzzy. Seriously, and there is a special surprise on the inside of the strap, I didnt know about it when I bought it, or even when I shot this photo. I opened it up to replace the cruddy old canon strap that came with my camera and THAT is when I found out how freaking unique these are. This strap is my new best friend, I felt like it was my birthday that night, even though I paid for it myself, it rocks my life. I am sure if you have one or kow what it is then you are probably like, "why the hell is she freaking out over it. Okay its great we got it." But that is what makes us so different....I GET SO SUPER EXCITED OVER THE LITTLEST LITTLE THINGS. That's why Im spe-shul. : ) So yeah.....strap on....awesome....email Emily!

Okay, now on to TODAY's blog-worthy events. I woke up bright and early, updated my 2peas gallery and got ready to visit my favorite place on earth. mmmmm just the thought of the smell of that place. LOVE IT! I hung out and chatted with Sweet sweet Chrissy, Rhonda, Nicole, Kelly, Anne, little Jackson and Lisa. Then I shopped and the DT decided that the Basic Grey needed to be put to good use so I thought of a fun little project to make with the Phoebe line. I cant even imagine having any photos to go with any of the Winter release lines. As much as I love them, just cant think of anything, not yet at least! I will definitely share it here when I am finished!

Kay, so my pinky is starting to cramp up. you know, the shift key to capitalize. Stay tuned for my next post, could NOT tell you when it will be but Ill share some of my newest layouts!

High pitched voices on a Saturday afternoon.

EEEEEEK! I woke up today with a package on my lap. I knew what it was when I saw it, something really awesome with some really awesome stamps inside.

Kim at Story of my Own was keeping a secret I think by not telling us we were getting the ONE thing from CHA that I really wanted. Its a Heidi Swapp ONE thing. Also, a few other freakin cool things from CHA that havent even hit the stores yet. Aly was getting all excited because of my high pitched screams, she kept turning around in circles and jumping up trying to see what mama was going crazy about. THIS KIT ROCKS. I cant wait to play with everything. I got my camera and took photos to share but then I realized that the sneak peek hasnt even been put on the site yet so it wouldnt be nice to post a photo here. There is still a lot of February left. SO then I took a photo of a little ditty Im working on right now instead. Mainly because I wanted to put my excitement into words and document it for me to read later, especially the Aly part, and I feel like I cant blog unless I have a fun photo something to go with the entry. So here it is.

   

It says on the cover, "Something to brag about." I saw the new Teresa Collin's stuff in the store and immediately picked this up knowing anything that was made from it would ROCK. Love this album. Its just envelopes glued together but there's just something so awesome about the way it was executed. So Im ultra excited to get it finished. Ill share the inside when Im done, its looking might cute so far. Im using the new Cosmo Cricket dutch girl line and its making my life happy right now. : )

So the book is a little "modern" brag book. Whenever I tell stories about my little men or Nick or Aly people always ask for pictures. I feel like a horrible girlfriend/mama/aunt when I dont have any with me. So this will solve all of my problems. It will also be a place for me to record things they say or do and things I need to scrapbook. So thats that.

Last night was fun. I did a make and take at Ruban Rouge and I survived! I was a nervous nelly, it being my first time teaching other scrapbookers. I feel so dumb showing women way older than me how to do something, like, "what does she know, she's 21." LOL But they all were so gracious and gentle with me for my first time. Then, I shopped. that, of course, was my favorite part. : )

I lost my paper piercer so I got a new one of those. Got some awesome MM anthology buttons for my little project, and finally got the MM instant setter and hole punch, my new best friend. time to throw out that stupid hammer bee-ess and join in the cool scrapper's ranks. Love it, totally my new favorite tool. sorry matty, (my basic grey magnetic mat), but we've been together for a few months now and.....it was time I found something to light my fire again. You're old news, but still in my top 5. lol

So I gotta do the working thing tonight. poop. I better make some money for pulling me away from my new scrappy stuff that I didnt pay for. (the SOMO kit, lol what were you thinking? I can't steal!)

ciao for now. :)